beautiful melancholia.

a still haven still within me.

colours fade to grey. 

furthermore mirror to accept this cage i am living in undone.

holy fuck this is my beautiful melancholia.

you have awoken in me.

a simple spare me.

breathing slowly into me.

what keeps me alive are certainties not fear. 

a lullaby for the clearing.

wake me up when there's simple beauty is happening. 

dawn forgets my shape and name.

holy fuck this is my beautiful melancholia.

you have awoken in me.

a simple sorrow.

holding slowly into me.

broken light and hollow years.

standing still in all of this motion. 

hold me in the aftermath. 

holy fuck this is my beautiful melancholia. 

you have awoken in me.

...

inert the cord.

shivering.

our hearts and of thee.

connected.

i know what we did.

i know what we can have.

tied bound by halved.

please cut it.

inert the cord.

it's killing inside of me.

damaged minds, burdened wraiths.

crawled and tortured.

in an emotional prison. 

connected.

i know what we did.

i know what we can have.

rip this together apart.

please cut it.

inert the cord.

it's killing inside of me. 

falling apart it seems very well.

into every broken dream.

drowning slow in what we were.

the absence in my heart.

connected.

i trace the shape of all your promises.

hold me in the aftermath.

im not empty, i'm just open.

echoes in my heart.

never stops.

inert the cord.

stillness.

...

downfall.

a phantom.

inside a borrowed silence.

mirrors speaking in reverse.

shapes i can't rehearse.

buried in my mind.

seems like a broken heaven.

everytime i look within.

this is a downfall unspoken.

in scattered pulses around me.

half a memory, half a lie.

feeling rhe edges of existence.

screaming at the curling sky.

buried in my mind.

seems like a broken heaven.

everytime i look within.

this is a downfall unspoken. 

fragments of my shadow.

was never really here.

...

forsaken.

have you forsaken me...

nocturnally pales upon the frail.

look at me.

in every frail, fleeting phrase.

i cannot speak, i cannot hear.

i know that you are staring down at me.

look at me.

a language grief can't sterilize.

a stillness. 

so pale, so fragile. 

the dark keep stitching memories.

open wounds i kept within.

i follow them through loss and prayer.

the others composes.

with memories i can't unrun.

i close my eyes. 

do you carry the truths, do you hold the thorn.

your shadow blooms through its grieving.

i forget what once was mine.

have you forsaken me.

like a prayer that forgot who it's for.

...

equilibrium.

hush.

awaken now.

abaddon me.

broken aeons.

contagion.

i am your test subject.

pale being in your bounds.

equilibrium.

i am your session 32.

stalking me.

i see you having a way with me.

watching me bleed slowly.

spinning and spinning in spirals.

losing my sanity in hell here.

equilibrium.

i am your session 32.

i don't want to be found.

i am alone here.

watching me suffering.

spinning around me for worse.

is this my true hell.

equilibrium.

i am your session 32.

i am not your patient anymore.

i am godless.

i am pured and sainted.

i don't want to be found.

i am alone here.

always.

...

grimoire.

closer and closer.

opened minds.

don't disturb the current.

grimoire dissolves, open wide.

kiss the void it tastes like me.

a funeral wrapped in melody.

i brought you dust.

don't disturb the current.

grimoire dissolves, open wide.

in every loss im sinking down.

your heaven weeps but never saves.

i am the hymn of endings near.

in the silence i remain.

kiss the void it tastes like me.

a funeral wrapped in melody.

i still don't know what this means but it seems poisoned enough.

ever near loss.

...

im still here.

we were both one.

just a beauty thing after another.

i fell for you

you fell for me.

naked and used up for decay.

i use your false heart as a poised.

i just wanna sleep in your arms.

i still take myself as a warning sign i must say.

never told too late.

im still here.

im still here.

im still here.

there's is heaven surrounding us all.

a featherweight.

don't want to see if it's for something granted. 

my limbs are numb.

i'm broken and fragile. 

yet im still here.

yet im still here.

yet im still here.

we're both severely faded.

is this a blessing or a true punishment from our altars.

the awakening is becoming above us.

yet im still here.

yet im still here.

yet im still here.

i don't want to let you go down there.

i will hold you. 

don't let that fade away from us.

please. 

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